August 28th, 2004
"And he answered, Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them."
August 3rd, 2004
|12:23 am - searching for a word......|
anyone please .. im looking for a word, and cannot find it.
its a word akin to the following--- plea, letter, defense, supplication,,.... something that is used as a last resort and submitted to a group of ,, jurors, i suppose.. its driving me crazy.... any suggestions would be lovely
July 21st, 2004
hello my dears=)
wow.. its been a bit since i updated... i am currently sitting in an orange appartment, full of madonna paraphanalia (sp?) listening to earth wind and fire.... i miss you all tons.. eric and meagh and moriah´, u guys should call me, my number is +358504742247
really... i need to hear from you before you all dissapear... call me at any time... dont worry about the time difference...
eric... you never post anymore so i have no idea whats going on in your life.. how are you? when are you running off again?
moriah-- meaghan or eric can give this message to her--
im so gonna miss the spider lady.. i hope you are doing good... taking care of yourself, getting enough rest, not using up all your energy at work... and getting free time for you... xoxoox
meaghan- i just posted you a comment, so yeah... i love all of you and miss you..
oh yeah alisha. email me!
June 12th, 2004
|04:12 am - in finland|
so everryone, sorry i havvee not called... itss been a crazy couple of days, or weeks ? im doing good but i miss all of you..... you knoow of course who you are.... i will call eventually, but know that i am thinkinng of youu.... be good, im onn somme hotel shitty commp/tv so i cannot be long.... love all of you.. xoxoxooxoxoxoxox
February 17th, 2004
sometimes its easy to make things happen, they happen on their own, or just sort of fall into place, some times its rather more difficult and you have to do things you dont really want to, to secure something in the future that you want even more than you dont want to do that thing now... this calls for prioritizing, decision making, and sacrifices... sometimes these are all jumpstarted by a decision that someone else makes,a pebble not thinking of its adverse effect on the leaf in the pond.. perhaps all of these things happen for a reason, maybe this chain of events was not so unplanned as it seems... i dont know.. that is where i am always left, ignorant...
dissapearing for a while should be good for me.. maybe ill be a butterfly when i come back.
February 12th, 2004
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February 5th, 2004
January 11th, 2004
last night i decided i should go out and be social, i havent in a while, it sounded like an ok idea,... so we went over to this house full of stupid drunk stupid new yorker snowboarder boys, like 17 of them... they all looked the same. talked to same... i mean , they were playing 'beer pong'... funfunfun... so instead of acting like i should have (which probably would have been throwing myself wholeheartedly into a game of good old fashioned, 'beerpong'. hah) i sat there watching, observing, and eventualy it was somewhat amusing.. then i found a ride home.. it was a complete waste of time.. see if i try to be social ever again,.. its just no good.
so today ive been one year in bend.... its crazy... that long... bend is the first place ive ever chosen to move to, and im still here , still surviving.. and if ive been a year here, that means ive been gone from finland in a year and a half... a most-disturbing thought... i still miss it alot... its hard to explain to people who have lived somewhere all of their life, or for a number of years even... ive never really lived anywhere long enough to take on that culture, that identity, at least when youve lived here forever you get that much, ive ended up with nothing.... i have no culture, no identity, no feeling of community, no sense of belonging...
god im in such a whiney mood today. sorry.
Current Mood: pessimistic
January 6th, 2004
|12:29 pm - the joy of couches.|
last night was like my birthday, or christmas, or some holiday where you are supposed to recieve wonderful things that you have always wanted, to my extreme suprise and abundant joy, i was given furnature.. im so excited... its amazing... who cares if i blew 80 dollars on having my car towed 6 meters... ive got a couch!
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: cars